A challenge, met.

Well, It's October. That means next month is November. That also means it is NaNoWriMo... National Novel Writing Month.

I've toyed with the idea of doing it for years. I think I even started it one month and failed miserably. Usually, I remember it's happening halfway through November. This time, however, I got a heads up from a friend, and so have plenty of time. I can think about what I should write. i can plan it out a little bit. i can psyche myself up.

It's quite the commitment. 6 pages a day for 30 days. I have trouble writing 6 sentences in this blog, and I'm going to do 6 pages? Audacity, meet your new overlord.

But, I think I need this. i need some discipline. Recently, I beat a PC game (Dragon Age). At the end, it consumed me. While I did enjoy the story, I just wanted to finish it, to finish something. A need not met in my professional life. So I would stay up late into the night, trying to get to the end of the story, the big meandering, glorious story.

Finally, i ended up triumphant. Almost all the side quests; the main quest complete. And since then I haven't had the desire to play a video game. That will change eventually, but for now, my mind wants to take on other pursuits.

I think that I need to give this blog a facelift. It's been very loyal to me, waiting obediently outside the door for me to return to it, even if I am gone for months at a time. I think it deserves better.

I have a domain that I could move it over to, but I'm not sure I want to leave blogger. I really need to find an easy way to update both sites at the same time, but my skillz aren't l44t enough.

Bookwise, I am 3/4 of the way through "The Book Thief". It's been some good stuff. Very serious stuff from what I had been reading recently, but great book for all the rain we've been receiving.

Fuck Paranoia

I've been wanting to write on here for a while, but I have avoided it as I have been worried someone would come across it and I'd somehow offend someone... well, screw that. This is my life, and these are my thoughts and if it bothers you, then don't read it.

I've been very unhappy lately. Turned 33 recently, and nothings changed. Still money stressed, my job is miserable (that's on the good days) and I feel I'm just treading water. barely.

I want to stop being a Debbie Downer. I want to perk up. I want to be happy. I just don't know how.

Maybe I need to suck it up. Maybe I need to stop sulking and smile. Maybe I need to just do what I have to do. And maybe, I need to get rid of the bad influence(s) in my life.

Maybe I should start today.

In other news: Been listening to the thermals non stop lately, their whole catalog. I acquire so much new music, it's nice to have a band to absorb. If they were around when I was in high school, I would have definitely written their name on my backpack in permanent marker. I can just let them repeat over and over again.