Fuck Paranoia

I've been wanting to write on here for a while, but I have avoided it as I have been worried someone would come across it and I'd somehow offend someone... well, screw that. This is my life, and these are my thoughts and if it bothers you, then don't read it.

I've been very unhappy lately. Turned 33 recently, and nothings changed. Still money stressed, my job is miserable (that's on the good days) and I feel I'm just treading water. barely.

I want to stop being a Debbie Downer. I want to perk up. I want to be happy. I just don't know how.

Maybe I need to suck it up. Maybe I need to stop sulking and smile. Maybe I need to just do what I have to do. And maybe, I need to get rid of the bad influence(s) in my life.

Maybe I should start today.

In other news: Been listening to the thermals non stop lately, their whole catalog. I acquire so much new music, it's nice to have a band to absorb. If they were around when I was in high school, I would have definitely written their name on my backpack in permanent marker. I can just let them repeat over and over again.